Engla2009

Yeah, I'm still alive. It was a close call, though. I won't be using this account very much anymore because I just feel like starting over again. My new account is ~DjDeadlyCapricorn (https://www.deviantart.com/djdeadlycapricorn) so go ahead and check it out if you like. I'm sorry for all that f****d up shit I said in my last journal, but I was really upset and had been for quite a while, and I just wanted to put an end to it all. Now, however, I don't feel like that. Why? Because I have finally found my one and only. She's really sweet and supportive, and I love her with all my heart. Thanks to her and my best friend who lives in France I managed to pull through. - Allen Ezekein

I used to be like any other girl. Happy, stubborn, kind, selfish, etc. Now I'm nothing like that. I laugh and smile around others, but beneath the mask I am crying. I hurt myself just to know that I can still feel something and maybe forget the pain I feel, if even for a short time. I have considered suicide ever since I was fourteen, maybe thirteen. Everyone told me it would go away with time, but I knew it was a lie. Everyday I sit in my bed and stare at the ceiling, wondering why I'm even alive. What is the meaning of it all? I'm seventeen years old now and a few people have told me that I've done a great job for holding for so long. I

Okay, so just a few weeks ago I bought a Nintendo 3DS and Pokémon X. Today I decided to write a list of what pokémon I have and what I nicknamed them :P Greninja - Dororo Blastoise - Leonardo Psyduck - Psiioniic Panpour - Perry Lapras - Sora Remoraid - no name yet Magikarp - Eridan Fletchling - Robin Talonflame - Dave Farfetch'd - Pewdiepie Farfetch'd - Quacklin' Pidgey - Talia Pidgey - Dirk Pansage - Ferb Skiddo - Capricornus Skiddo - Gamzee Hoppip - Sakura Chinchou - Aqua Plusle - Kaoru Helioptile - Allen Pichu - Maya Pichu - Kim Pichu - Max Pichu - Rika Pikachu - Michelangelo Raichu - Engla Raichu -